to everyone who reads this:

i am tired of being told how i've changed. i'm tired of being told what to do. i'm tired of being questioned for my actions, and i'm tired of dealing with it. so this is my last entry. i'm not here to be undermined and second guessed and lectured, and everyone is guilty of doing it. that's not what friends do. if this is what's left of the friendships i have, then i can do without them. i don't care if you blame me entirely for everything that's happened. most of you already have to some degree. you can blame away, but i won't be here to listen to it anymore.